May 14th 2009

mood : stumped

listening : Bring Me The Horizon - Pray for plague

reading : wall on my facebook

watching : television

eating : -

drinking : bitter coffee

FEELING

someone ask me: "naad, what do you feel now?" and i just can say "i dont know dear, i dont understand this feeling" then he say "just show your feeling naad"

yeah! now, i can try to show it.

I feel happy, when I hanging out with my friends. when I playing my piano. when I singing.

i feel I wanna die, when I bored with everyone, and with everything in the world. when people cant cares for me. when world hates me.

I feel pessimist, when my value is bad. when I disappointing my parents and all people.

I feel have no friends, when I dont know to whom I told about my feelings. like now.

I feel so in love, when I know he cares for me, when he makes me fall in love with his kindness. when he smiled, then singing, and playing music just for me.

I feel hurt, when you lie to me, when you despise me, when you betray me, when you remove me, when you backstab me.

and I dont understand my feeling if all these feelings are combined.

it sounds crazy but it really happened to me. :(